Log 0018 - [Video]
Jul. 14th, 2014 12:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
keeps_a_cool_head[Someone is in an angry sort of mood, given post-flood shenanigans. Scorpius is keeping himself relatively calm by usual standards, but he's tense and bristling when he makes his post]
I should like the permission of a warden to work in the lab today.
[All day. Because hell if he's going to deal with emotions.]
[Private to Horatio]
I believe I owe you an apology. The responsibility of my flooded self lies with me.
[Private to Stephanie]
Thank you for keeping the situation under manageable control.
I should like the permission of a warden to work in the lab today.
[All day. Because hell if he's going to deal with emotions.]
[Private to Horatio]
I believe I owe you an apology. The responsibility of my flooded self lies with me.
[Private to Stephanie]
Thank you for keeping the situation under manageable control.
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Date: 2014-07-15 03:13 am (UTC)[ Lucky her, the only thing that changed was her body. It was one hell of a ride, let her tell you. ]
You were a whole different animal.
[ That came out a little more speciesist than she intended. ]
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Date: 2014-07-15 03:15 am (UTC)[He's not just a bit jealous. When Scorpius had absolutely nothing, he could always depend on his mind. The last flood proved that that was no longer the case.]
My paternal genes were able to better surface. What you saw was a halfbreed attempting to pass herself off as a full-blooded Scarran.
One of the oddities of genetics.
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Date: 2014-07-15 03:18 am (UTC)[ She figured it would always be a straight male-female switch, but hey, genetics. Then again she sort of wonders if anyone ever turns intersex, or anything like that. ]
I get it. You overcompensate for high expectations you couldn't possibly live up to.
[ Hello, overly-physical younger Steph. ]
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Date: 2014-07-15 03:21 am (UTC)I still can hear her. Laying her lies one after the other in my mind.
[And this irks him to no end. His mind is precious to him: interlopers are not appreciated]
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Date: 2014-07-15 03:28 am (UTC)Sometimes you can even learn something, being someone else for a few days.
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Date: 2014-07-15 03:31 am (UTC)Most floods are a learning experience. That one was not. And it would be better if it were forgotten entirely.
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Date: 2014-07-15 03:39 am (UTC)Funny, I thought you'd like the challenge of trying to find meaning in the Admiral's shenanigans.
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Date: 2014-07-15 03:40 am (UTC)private;
Date: 2014-07-15 03:56 am (UTC)private;
Date: 2014-07-15 11:48 am (UTC)private;
Date: 2014-07-15 03:44 pm (UTC)private;
Date: 2014-07-15 04:16 pm (UTC)[He senses this won't ever happen. The Admiral won't let him leave while he continues to foster his plan]
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Date: 2014-07-15 05:14 pm (UTC)private;
Date: 2014-07-15 05:23 pm (UTC)It is not a suicide mission: or, at least, I would prefer it not to be. I don't enjoy the idea of pointlessly dying for any cause in the name of sacrifice.
There is no one else who can: more, there is no one else who deserves to.
This is my project: my life is wholly encompassed in this work I have chosen for myself. Once that work is complete, I can turn my attention to other things.
But not before.
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Date: 2014-07-15 09:57 pm (UTC)private;
Date: 2014-07-16 11:48 am (UTC)I had nothing else before I began this work. I know precisely to what I will be returning.
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Date: 2014-07-16 11:59 pm (UTC)People aren't meant to live like that.
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Date: 2014-07-17 02:09 am (UTC)And yet without the purpose I chose for myself, it's debatable whether I would have lived to this age at all.
When you have nothing, hatred can be a damaging, useful tool. It focuses the mind wonderfully, but it leaves very little else in your life.
Fortunately there is nothing I've left wanting to fill that gap.
And it is not only hatred that compels me to destroy them, Stephanie. I feel pity and disgust for them; I feel a slight urge to protect the Peacekeepers I spent arns of my life working beside. Perhaps even I feel love for a memory of someone I've never met.
My life is my own to do as I want with it. This is what I want.
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Date: 2014-07-17 02:16 am (UTC)private;
Date: 2014-07-17 02:18 am (UTC)And despite the pain, I enjoy being alive.
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Date: 2014-07-17 02:21 am (UTC)[ She does make a good point - sometimes our mission in life is an idiotic one. ]
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Date: 2014-07-17 02:22 am (UTC)private;
Date: 2014-07-17 02:25 am (UTC)private;
Date: 2014-07-17 02:26 am (UTC)But you've failed to convince me of an alternate path I ought to be taking that would eliminate the very real threat in my universe, satisfy my desire for revenge, and not get me killed. Again.
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