Log 0018 - [Video]

[keeps_a_cool_head]

[Someone is in an angry sort of mood, given post-flood shenanigans. Scorpius is keeping himself relatively calm by usual standards, but he's tense and bristling when he makes his post]

I should like the permission of a warden to work in the lab today.

[All day. Because hell if he's going to deal with emotions.]



[Private to Horatio]

I believe I owe you an apology. The responsibility of my flooded self lies with me.

[Private to Stephanie]

Thank you for keeping the situation under manageable control.

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[ichoosefight]

[ She blinks, briefly confused by the question. Most of those people she never got revenge on, or wouldn't want it. But then she knows what answer he's looking for. ]

For a long time I was afraid to go home because I knew Black Mask would be waiting there for me, and everyone else would be there with all their disappointment. Even if I made it through I thought, I've lost everything, so what's the point?

When I finally graduated, I had to put away the idea that I would kill him myself. I knew that I was strong enough to get away if I needed to, and that was just what I had to do.

But then he got a hold of someone I care about. There wasn't any time to think about it, I had to make a choice then and there. If I hadn't just taken a gun away from a gangbanger... [ She wouldn't have shot Black Mask. Maybe Babara would be dead. Maybe Steph would be dead. She doesn't know. ]

It wasn't a good feeling. It didn't make me feel safe. I felt like now I was the danger, and I'd thrown away everything I had only just gotten back.

[keeps_a_cool_head]

Revenge seldom feels good, Stephanie. Murder no matter the case, unless you are completely psychopathic, doesn't bring you joy.

[But he still would do it, and gladly, even if it ruins his own life. This is what his life was purposed for]

But sometimes it is a necessity. You may argue about choice, but in the end it may come down to only two choices: living, or dying.

[ichoosefight]

[ For once she just nods, soberly. He's absolutely right, about revenge, and about choices. Killing Black Mask involved neither, really. ]

What were you expecting me to say? That I shot him the first chance I got? If I'd done that I wouldn't have died. [ She lets out a single harsh "hah" as the irony hits her. ] That just goes to show you how badly I screwed everything up.

[keeps_a_cool_head]

From my perspective, you did not..'screw everything up.'

[Look at him, copying human vernacular.]

Or if you did, then you are swiftly on your way to repairing matters.

You are alive now. This counts for something.

[ichoosefight]

[ Now that makes her smile. A little deviously, even. ]

Are you trying to encourage me? That's downright sweet.

[keeps_a_cool_head]

[He bends down to give Stephanie back her beanie baby cat, his gaze completely impenetrable]

No. But I did tell you I don't make a habit of lying.

[ichoosefight]

[ She takes the cat back and turns it to face him, moving the head up and down with one finger so it seems to be the one talking. ]

You were totally trying to encourage me.

[keeps_a_cool_head]

[A dry pause, before Scorpius turns back to the Chair to finish his ministrations]

I was. Now I'm in severe doubt I should ever have tried.

[ichoosefight]

[ She is just going to sit here happily with the knowledge that she has won some sort of victory. She's not totally sure what kind, but its definitely a victory. ]