Scorpius (
keeps_a_cool_head) wrote2014-07-14 12:49 pm
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Log 0018 - [Video]
[Someone is in an angry sort of mood, given post-flood shenanigans. Scorpius is keeping himself relatively calm by usual standards, but he's tense and bristling when he makes his post]
I should like the permission of a warden to work in the lab today.
[All day. Because hell if he's going to deal with emotions.]
[Private to Horatio]
I believe I owe you an apology. The responsibility of my flooded self lies with me.
[Private to Stephanie]
Thank you for keeping the situation under manageable control.
I should like the permission of a warden to work in the lab today.
[All day. Because hell if he's going to deal with emotions.]
[Private to Horatio]
I believe I owe you an apology. The responsibility of my flooded self lies with me.
[Private to Stephanie]
Thank you for keeping the situation under manageable control.
Private;
Of course it isn't. It's different for everyone, but there still have to be things that you want. Stupid little things that aren't right or wrong but are still worth living for. Things that make you happy, even if it's just the feeling of going to bed after a really long day.
Private;
Oh, well. That's one of them right there, isn't it?]
Something I want.
I would like someone I could trust absolutely. Someone who could keep my secrets. A person I could trust with my life and my purpose, to follow instructions not as I say but how I'd wish them to be done. Preferably someone who is not repulsed by my appearance and doesn't recoil from my conversation.
Private;
[ Yes that is what she got from that description. ]
Private;
[So dry. so very, very dry]
Shall I begin conducting interviews?
Private;
[ Joking, she's joking now. ]
Private;
If you knew precisely how many people blatantly lied to your face, I doubt you'd be nearly as optimistic about trust, Stephanie. It's a far greater number than you think.
Private;
Are you kidding me? I live my whole life navigating lies. I spent most of my young adulthood fighting tooth and nail for the trust of people who wouldn't tell me their real names. I lived with a crook and a druggie, I know how often people lie to me. I'll give you a hint: it's basically all the time.
Private;
Then how is it you presume to believe there is someone out there I would be willing to give my trust?
For your observations as a warden, I have never lied to you.
Private;
And anyway life is too depressing when you assume the worst. I can't afford to think like that.
[ Which is not to say that she doesn't think like that - only that she knows that she mustn't. ]
Private;
[He stands up out of the chair, walking around it, before looking to Stephanie]
I suppose I could not convince you to test this with me.
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Are you able to tell when I'm lying, Stephanie?
Private;
No. I kinda just assume it's most of the time.
[ So no, she doesn't believe you when you say you've never lied to her. She is not nearly so trusting as she likes to appear. ]
Private;
What would it take to convince you I was telling the truth?
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Yes, they are.
Then according to you, my graduation is not whether I deceive; it's for which reasons.
Private;
More or less. I think not manipulating people all the time probably has something to do with it too.
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[It's great, bro. You should try manipulating more. You'd love it.]
Private; cw: abuse...?
[ Her words are adamant, but her tone is matter of fact. This is what life in her world is like. ]
I was a hostage to my dad, a warm body to my boyfriend, an alibi to my teachers, a faulty tool to my childhood hero, a distraction to the love of my life, a toy to Black Mask. I've been traded, abandoned, strung along, lied to, trapped, tortured. I was told all my life that I was worthless, that justice and freedom and normalcy was for everyone else, that if I didn't color inside the lines I'd be beaten, abused, or killed. And you know what? Fuck that. And fuck everyone that treats other people like that, too.
Private; cw: abuse...?
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