And yet without the purpose I chose for myself, it's debatable whether I would have lived to this age at all.
When you have nothing, hatred can be a damaging, useful tool. It focuses the mind wonderfully, but it leaves very little else in your life.
Fortunately there is nothing I've left wanting to fill that gap.
And it is not only hatred that compels me to destroy them, Stephanie. I feel pity and disgust for them; I feel a slight urge to protect the Peacekeepers I spent arns of my life working beside. Perhaps even I feel love for a memory of someone I've never met.
My life is my own to do as I want with it. This is what I want.
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Date: 2014-07-17 02:09 am (UTC)And yet without the purpose I chose for myself, it's debatable whether I would have lived to this age at all.
When you have nothing, hatred can be a damaging, useful tool. It focuses the mind wonderfully, but it leaves very little else in your life.
Fortunately there is nothing I've left wanting to fill that gap.
And it is not only hatred that compels me to destroy them, Stephanie. I feel pity and disgust for them; I feel a slight urge to protect the Peacekeepers I spent arns of my life working beside. Perhaps even I feel love for a memory of someone I've never met.
My life is my own to do as I want with it. This is what I want.