Do you think I enjoyed having to carry about the weight of my possible future insanity, after that other Barge? Knowing that if I continued my path unaltered, I was going to wind up nothing more than a petty, stupid, sadistic monster?

No. But I waited. I did my best to stop poking at it. And the scars, they eventually fade.

It's only been a few days. You're overreacting.